Been about 15 years since last cycle, need a lot of help

[Slimster0710]

Hi I'm new to the site and feel like I'm new to the whole game! I used to workout religiously, did a couple of cycles, had a friend who was a trainer and he would train me, help me w/ what I needed! The last cycle I did I guess he had me going way overboard on omnigen & dianabol! Right in the middle of the cycle my buddy died! Never did any pct and come to find out the amount of juice he had me inject and take was way over the top for seasoned steroid users! My balls have always since been real tight and never really swing I guess you could say! I took the death pretty hard, since we were friends for 15 years! Have not stepped in the gym since! I work construction so I'm fairly active! 6 foot 210-225! In the last 4 months something seamed to change! I turned 40, but about a month before my birthday I seamed to start gaining weight very fast, my facial hair doesn't grow anywhere like it used to, and my erections have been 50% if I'm lucky and when I do get these half ass erections I seem to cum in like 30 seconds! Never been an issue since I was like 15! So I'm concerned I have low t! I left out I am a smoker & am addicted to crystal meth! So here is my thinking! If I start a cycle that will get me back to the gym, get me to give up the meth, and help with my low t/erection problems! But I can't give myself shots so I'm thinking it would all need to pills! Any suggestions as to a good stack that is kind of moderate, but will help me bulk up, lose the 50 lbs I've added to my gut in the last 4 months, and give me some energy to get up and actually do things! Don't have insurance so I'm pretty much hoping to self medicate at least in the beginning and maybe after pct things might go back to Normal!

[Admin]

Hi I'm new to the site and feel like I'm new to the whole game! I used to workout religiously, did a couple of cycles, had a friend who was a trainer and he would train me, help me w/ what I needed! The last cycle I did I guess he had me going way overboard on omnigen & dianabol! Right in the middle of the cycle my buddy died! Never did any pct and come to find out the amount of juice he had me inject and take was way over the top for seasoned steroid users! My balls have always since been real tight and never really swing I guess you could say! I took the death pretty hard, since we were friends for 15 years! Have not stepped in the gym since! I work construction so I'm fairly active! 6 foot 210-225! In the last 4 months something seamed to change! I turned 40, but about a month before my birthday I seamed to start gaining weight very fast, my facial hair doesn't grow anywhere like it used to, and my erections have been 50% if I'm lucky and when I do get these half ass erections I seem to cum in like 30 seconds! Never been an issue since I was like 15! So I'm concerned I have low t! I left out I am a smoker & am addicted to crystal meth! So here is my thinking! If I start a cycle that will get me back to the gym, get me to give up the meth, and help with my low t/erection problems! But I can't give myself shots so I'm thinking it would all need to pills! Any suggestions as to a good stack that is kind of moderate, but will help me bulk up, lose the 50 lbs I've added to my gut in the last 4 months, and give me some energy to get up and actually do things! Don't have insurance so I'm pretty much hoping to self medicate at least in the beginning and maybe after pct things might go back to Normal!

Firstly, I'm very sorry to hear you're good friend died, but am glad you feel like you've turned a corner.

Second, get the fuck off of CM. It will eat away at your life. You cannot run steroids and do that. Get healthy, eat clean, high in protein and regular training program, then think about steroids, now is not the time.

Lastly, get blood testing done to see if you have low T or something else. Rec drugs will wreck havoc on your HPTA.

[Slimster0710]

I have been trying to get off the CM! I have been dieting and doing cardio and the weight doesn't seem to be going down but it stopped going up I just figured that if I started a cycle it would be the final step to kicking the shit!! It would almost be a death sentence to put my liver thru both! That was my thinking atleast! I have gotten the CM use almost under control I just wanted a trump card to have to make me say no! That's all!

[Admin]

I have been trying to get off the CM! I have been dieting and doing cardio and the weight doesn't seem to be going down but it stopped going up I just figured that if I started a cycle it would be the final step to kicking the shit!! It would almost be a death sentence to put my liver thru both! That was my thinking atleast! I have gotten the CM use almost under control I just wanted a trump card to have to make me say no! That's all!

Don't use steroids and CM, you will do even more damage.

Get clean and healthy, get your weight down then think about steroids.